My past few most agonising days

i've been struck down by some wicked arrow since saturday, which bears the initials h.y.a.a. just as i've figured, it read, 'hi, you are afflicted!' maybe i've just gone mad imagining things. maybe im not thinking on the wavelength as you right now. my brain's a little shaken. lol.
it all started on saturday, after i had woken up from a successful guitar concert. i started the day with a cough, then another, this time, a much more forceful and painful. ta da.. i was headed to destruction.. btw, i had a bloody red patch on my left eye since fri. it was rather scary.
i survived sat trying to recover the rest that i had lost. i was down with fever reching up to 38.4 degrees celcius. i also had sore throat, cough, and flu.

on sun, i couldnt go to church, i rested at home, i could do anything like watching tv, if not my fever would shoot up and my head would get all the aches and feel dizzy. so i rested and rested, with mum so lovingly and kindly missing service so that she can monitor me. at 6.30pm, 326 clinic was open. so i went. and i had to wait for 8 ppl before my turn. im glad i managed to pull through the ordeal. i wanted to sleep on mum's shoulder but i somehow felt uncomfortable. and i kept coughing. finally it was my turn. the doc read my temperature. it was a whooping 39.5 degrees celcius!!! whoa, i almost died at hearing that! i was feeling very out of sorts before the visit to the clinic and my temperature which was taken at home was 38-39 degrees celcius. but the doc said it could be easily 40. so he immediately said i needed the bullet in my butt. haha, it was just a consequence i had to face for not taking good care of myself. he prescribed me my medicine. i must admit i love the cough medicine, the black syrupish liquid. it's so caramelish, i love it. but too bad, it's medicine, i have to take it sparingly. btw, doc said that the red patch in my eye was a hemorrhage (okay i admit, i checked the spelling up on dictionary.com. haha). but the patch will go away in time!

yesterday, on mon, it was supposed to be sec 3 camp day, but im sick, so i had to sacrifice my camp for my health, which i now hold very very very dear.

today is tues, im much better! my fever has subsided. the aches are almost gone, only with a few here and there. my nose is clear, even the red patch in my eye's getting fainter, the only problem is my throat and phlegm. well, they are the main trouble makers.

if you ask me whether i was foolish in not sleeping well and playing instead, i would say no. i guess it was all part of learning and growing. i might have done the same if i was a 25 year old who had not gone through what it means to have too little sleep. but im glad God put me through this now, and not some crucial part of my life. at least now, all i miss is a camp, what if i have it before a major exam? or before an important interview? i thank Him for choosing the right time to teach me a lesson, using the hard way, as it seems. but if you ask me to stay up till 5.30 again, i will say no thanks. 2? no thanks again, this time, im wiser and value my health which God given me.

the song on my blog fits my mood really well now! UNWELL!

All day
Staring at the ceiling
Making friends with shadows on my wall
All night
Hearing voices telling me
That I should get some sleep
Because tomorrow might be good for something
Hold on
I'm feeling like I'm headed for a
Breakdown
I don't know why
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know, right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know, right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be
Me
Talking to myself in public
Dodging glances on the train
I know
I know they've all been talking 'bout me
I can hear them whisper
And it makes me think there must be something wrong
With me
Out of all the hours thinking
Somehow
I've lost my mind
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know, right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be I been talking in my sleep
Pretty soon they'll come to get me
Yeah, they're taking me away
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know, right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy I'm just a little impaired
I know, right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be
Hey, how I used to be
How I used to be, yeah
Well I'm just a little unwell
How I used to be
How I used to be